25 Sept., 2020

I’m getting to the point that I’m going to run out of clonazepam and zolpidem before the prescriptions are renewable. I was not worried at first, because bad bouts like this rarely last more than two weeks, but this nonsense has been going on a month. I went to my doctor and fessed up. The doctor asked me if I’d ever taken amitriptyline before, so I said yes, and it made me sleep like a cat, but I also gained weight on it, so I was switched to desipramine. He is currently looking up the options.

1 Sept., 2020

It hurts to be this tired– you’d think that at such a point I’d sleep from total exhaustion, but nope. When I woke up at midnight, I woke up shaking. It took a couple of minutes to stop. Would Tylenol make me feel better? or migraine medicine? Sometimes caffeine helps. Sometimes food helps.

What about the day when nothing helps?