My brain is 12 pages into writing a bad novel, just drew a pattern for a sewing project, and would like to finish up all my lesson plans for Hebrew school to the end of the semester, which begins on the 30th. I haven’t even received all my materials, so doing my lesson plans now means huge revisions later, but my brain has a big itch to do them anyway. It’s probably going to win. It usually wins. It’s a bully.
I cannot power down. I’m describing it like I am, because that’s my subjective experience, but I know there are a lot of people who would call it a lack of willpower. “Turn off the light, lie down, go to sleep.” But I can’t. I mean, I try, but it doesn’t last. It’s 2:33am right now. I slept from 8:30-10, and midnight-1:30, more or less. I might catch a little sleep between 5am & 7am, especially if I take medicine. That’ll probably be it for the night.